I Am Not Ashamed Anymore

I want to talk about Fan Fiction specifically because I love it. I am not ashamed of that. Anonymous writing is good for me. Even if it’s about Twilight or Divergent. I’ll have to wait for a time where I haven’t been working on another story for 6 hours to vent. I have words that I’ve bottled up about Fifty Shades of Intimate Partner Abuse, and its author, Lucifer.

I adore fan fiction, as many anonymous published authors do, both reading and writing it. The fan fiction model is unique and helps get the pipes unclogged when I write my original stuff. When I am in a bad mood, I take it out on Edward Cullen, with one shot alternatives to New Moon situations, including the COVID-19 virus playing a role, given that Edward died from the Spanish Flu in 1918.

My first fic I did at least one chapter a week, and I wrote 200,000 words. Honestly, because it’s so AU (Alternate Universe) AH (All human) and OOC (Out Of Canon) and written in the third person, I have a soft spot for it. It was proof that I could write. For my first complete (novel-sized) fic, I read some of it now and then, and I see some of the best writing I’ve done. I was also nominated for some award for the best-completed fic of 2018. Same with the next I took on in 2019. One hundred thousand words where Bella is witch, and it’s kind of a twisted take on Twilight. I am working on the second part (80,000 words in and halfway through my god. I had to take some time off) kind of a twisted take on Breaking Dawn. If Bella was less of a Mary Sue, and Edward was less of a dick.

I have never written her as a Mary Sue. Ha! I just can’t degrade any character I write like that, especially women protagonists. Honestly, I’d die and go to heaven if I could just ask Stephenie Meyer if she would change anything in 2020 compared to 2005. But Midnight Sun is coming out in August. Hopefully, the completion of a book that fans have been waiting 15 years for results in a less neurotic Bella/Edward story.

Also, sometimes it’s nice reading an alternative to a book with an ending I loathed. (Hello, Divergent Series! The book Allegiant is a prime example. Hate that book, love the series.) If you go to the Amazon listing for Allegiant, the most popular review is the link to a far more satisfying end to the divergent series, and the author also wrote Divergent from Four’s perspective, and it’s flawless. Seriously, I threw Allegiant in the trash the first time I read it.

Let me just say this, with the Divergent movies and Allegiant. The reason they did not shoot the last half of the final Divergent film (Ascendant) is that Allegiant did so poorly. (You know these days 150 million dollars equals failure?) 

Allegiant did so poorly because they gave it the same title as the book. I am so not going to spoiler alert this, but nobody wants to go to a movie with senseless major character death. Turns out, they decided against killing off a significant character but did not tell those who read the books that. It seems like such a waste because the first Divergent movie is excellent, Insurgent is nothing like the book (still excellent) and the same with the Allegiant movie. But instead of having any satisfaction of an alternative, they killed everyone off by not finishing it. One day I do hope they recast the entire thing and stay faithful to the source material up to a point as a streaming series.

Fanfiction is usually someplace where you post chapter by chapter, and you get reviews, and they help shape the way your story is going. It’s nice. You do not receive that feedback with original fiction.

I hope everyone is having a good month, staying safe, and all that good stuff. So really that’s all I have to say about that.